Complicate

Hi friends,

          Reaching the half mark in the journey of life it’s tough to realise that we had lost our way, the only feel good thing about it is that we are not alone in the list, it goes on and on, so when we feel that we had not reached where we must have we will start acting like strangers when we stumble upon the old friends whom we had lost in transit time school to college, college to work place, but we are not realising the fact they are also in same situation, not reaching the goals on time, by staying away from friends is the solution for whatever situation we are in, no not at all, just open up to them, share the feelings, where you lost the contact begin from there, it will make our pain to drain out,   

          Life is a game where nobody wins, to an extent it’s all about compromises, your compromise may give lot of meaning for many, not everybody could win the race, don’t feel bad about losing the race, think about those who not participated in the race, so you are better than those who were watching the race,

          There is no one who had achieved all his desire before the leaves this world, human beings are incomplete souls, and there are incomplete promises, so in that way life is also incomplete, and without realising this fact we push ourselves for perfection, try for perfection but don’t demand for it, nothing is perfect even the way the world evolve,

          Hmmm hope i had complicated your reading, guess you was waiting for some message to be thrown to you as food for thought then sorry folks, i just keyed in whatever came in my mind, you may find it as nonsense but just remind yourself  “nothing is perfect” so me and my blogs too!!   

love

josh

Bogus doctor

Hi friends,

Fever


Went to doctor, waited sometime, got the prescription, came back, took medicine,

Next day, fever not down, stomach pain started, thought because of the side effect of the tablets, evening again same clinic, doctor asked me to stop the medicine, i felt i was correct, because of that i got stomach pain....

Back home, started avoiding the medicine which he mentioned, but stomach pain started aggravating,

Next day around afternoon pain was killing me, decided to go to hospital,

One of the big name in medical service, i got admitted there, they started diagnosing the next day night 9.45 i was on operation table...


It was 11.30 when i bought back to ICU,


4 days at ICU...


Then to the room, the pain was eating me, it was like hell on earth, and ya no water was given me till the day i got discharged from the day i got admitted, water was what i wanted at that point of time, if some had offered me a fortune or a glass of water i would have happily opted for water, hope you understood how badly i was dying for H2O!!

Everything should had been avoided if i had informed about the pain at the beginning stage but at that point of time i become the doctor for the time being, went to nearby medical shop, took some medicine, had some relief for that time, and i continued the routine, i would have ended up paying the huge price...... my life, if i got delayed to get the treatment on time, so i had understood the meaning of the proverb “A stitch in time saves nine”

So don’t pretend doctor’s to yourself and to others, to do the job better there are real doctor’s!!


Love


josh

Miss you sweet heart!

You were and will be..... My world, my inspiration, my passion, my life, my love...

I have no complaints all have is some questions, i know there is no point in shooting those questions to the world who themselves are busy in breaking up and making up! I remember how i become vegetarian just for you, to impress or create an impact on your feelings for me and the way you responded “be yourself and that’s what i like” we had never proposed to each other but we were in the same wave length and brilliant enough to conceal the feelings from our friends, but we were wrong sweet heart our friends too were very much aware of the affair, that’s why they are our friends,

          I still had not found the answer for those question marks, when i think about a thing it will flow as words from your mouth, the level of understanding between us still remains like a huge question mark,

I don’t know why i feel like if u where here right now with me i would have the richest man on earth, i had lots of negatives and still i have, but u surprised me by taking those as positives, am very much sure no one in the world would have go after a guy who had never been serious about life, who was always living in the present without worrying about the future,   

       

   Still whenever i revisit those spots which we had explored together or with our friends i could feel the energy and a visual runs on the screens of my mind, the fights we had on the streets, the roadside tea stall and the pokodas, the rain, oh ya that to the trains, the central railway station, the marina, the pani puris, Bombay lussi, roadside bookshops (later i came to know u hated reading!! just purchase those craps for this poor josh), the hostel, the sabhas, the cinemas, MTC buses, the park, the dhabas, the orphanage, friends weddings, criticising my scripts, the institute of chartered accountants of India, our coaching classes (early morning classes!!), the aptech, all those assignments written by you sweet heart ( i should have preserved those if i knew u will be leaving us so early), che’s t shirts (am still having it), your cooking at our friends flat (the mutton biriyani, ada pradhaman, the meen curry you were an awesome cook sweet heart), the tiger biscuits, long walks, the birthday parties, your songs (you are a bad singer!!), the dance, the bad words you use at times!, all those things which needs a censor, and many more close to heart events, thanks a ton for the wonderful moments,

I know your soul will rest in peace always!!

love

josh

NOTE:

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters,places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental

joker !!

Hello friends,

          Last Friday went for INCEPTION; it was an extraordinary and out of box stuff, loved each shot of it, but still something was creeping in my mind when we came out of the cinema mall, yes it was the one of the best performer of our time who was disturbing me, who had mesmerised us with his stunning performances, and at the last performance he had made an everlasting impression on all of us, he performed his character in such a way like it was the last of his life time, and finally when the jury recognised this great actor he was no more there to receive the top most honour of film world,

    Got any clue of whom am mentioning here, yes there is a association with the director of the movie INCEPTION, Christopher Nolan who had trusted the actor and in return he had made the director proud for what he had assigned for, it’s about Heath Ledger, to make it crystal clear THE JOKER from THE DARK KNIGHT, life at times is so unfair, people say hard work pays, but in his case hard work paid but the person was not there to receive the honour, he was just 28 when he said good bye to this unfair world, so I just remembered one of the special person I respect!

          Now you people wonder why getting emotional, I don’t mind because am emotional driven and in today’s world i will be pulled back to the last row with this attitude but I still don’t give a damn,

          Once again my salute to the joker, I miss him!

love

josh

monsoon mania :)

hello friends,

  how is life, today i feel like writing though there is no specific topic in mind just want to hit the keys in the way my mind directs me, rain its special for all of us, it can bring comfort for our hearts, when we are emotionally down rain enhance our mood, we can sit idle for hours watching the race of rain drops to hit the ground, the various moods of rain can be related to our moods also, we had fun walking in the rain when we were in school, even we had umbrellas we cautiously forget it at home when we are damn sure it’s going to rain heavily, i was blessed enough to spend my school days in our native place, now i realise how bad others had missed the season who are growing and make a living in the concrete forest! It was the best part of my so called life, whenever it rains i could related myself to by beautiful village,

 Rain and football my goodness it’s double treat we were lucky enough to unleash our souls for a while, it was not about scoring and winning it was all about going mad and mad, swimming in pond another heaven for the unrest souls, when we are drenched our next stop will be the tea stall where we treat ourselves with hot snacks and the black tea, wow then our next adventure were to go fishing, we were never frightened by the thunderstorm, we were just crazy going wild at things hard any human soul could imagine!


When ever i plan a trip to my native i make sure it’s monsoon, and you people won’t believe even at this point of life when our old gang meet up we have the same fun we had during our school day, of course with some restrictions! Some of my school mates are married and having kids some are at responsible positions on the so called corporate world but when we meet and that too during monsoon it’s time to kick off our madness and we all become kids for a while and that how life should be lived, monsoon are blessings!!


Love


Josh

hurt locker

Friends,

          Today is Friday another day of off from work and what did i did, yes had did many useless things but yes had done one useful thing i guess! Had watched the movie “the hurt locker”,  which ignited today’s topic for my blog, yup the movie is all about the struggle the soldier’s go all the way through  for the benefit of individuals interests not for nations interest, anyway war is not at all justified if it’s for the benefit of whatever..

          So yes it’s a pathetic position to live a life of an expatriate in your mother land, but the movie also through light on the way these soldier’s live in a foreign land, the war in Iraq whenever engaged as a topic of discussion we got people taking two side, one who justify the blood shedding and the one who grumble for the killing of the innocent people (the kids and women)....

          Families are muddled by these bloody wars for the reason that of the untenable decisions made by leaders (of the world’s super power nations) for their benefits, it’s so clear to all of us that the war on Iraq was all about oil, not because of that Saddam was the real treat to the world, the problem was he would be a treat for the US when you had to sit to obtain a better oil price per barrel, of course US can put sanction on the countries who doesn’t listen to their commands, the war was planned  well in advance to safe guard the interest of the US who in future have to import oil in huge volumes, at that time if Saddam was in power he will be in the position to control the price of the oil and without doubt Saddam will sell it on a much higher price, when you have power you will go demon and forget of the consequences, but the victims of your exploitation will hit back to you as hard as they could when they get the power, power shift will happen, nothing is permanent....

          So these soldiers too have families, mother waiting for her son to get back for Christmas, the children who waits for the father’s to come back for a break and go for a holiday in Disney land, the wife with the new born baby, who had sent the pictures of their child through internet to her hubby who is in the net of war...

          What will be the reason for the next war? Water and hope it never happen and if that happen it will be the end of world!!

          It was a great experience watching this movie, it shows the how helpless are these soldiers are at situations, some movies are really worth watching so this one goes to that group, excellent work, my say is catch it!!

love
josh

my heart beats!!

Friends,
So it has been so long that i had made an attempt to update my blogs, so here i am to put down some words, this time it’s all about you my dear, friends thanks for being my friend, i am so addicted that i couldn’t move on without your support, am blessed with the kind of relation you people are showering on me, when ever am down, you people won’t believe!! Someone from you is just there to step-up my mood by a simple text message, mail or a phone call.. i feel like you people are just watching me close.. so what ever i say is not enough to show my gratitude to you wonderful creation called friends! Be there for me ever and never say goodbye....Khabi Alvida Naa Kehana .....
with love
josh