Miss you sweet heart!

You were and will be..... My world, my inspiration, my passion, my life, my love...

I have no complaints all have is some questions, i know there is no point in shooting those questions to the world who themselves are busy in breaking up and making up! I remember how i become vegetarian just for you, to impress or create an impact on your feelings for me and the way you responded “be yourself and that’s what i like” we had never proposed to each other but we were in the same wave length and brilliant enough to conceal the feelings from our friends, but we were wrong sweet heart our friends too were very much aware of the affair, that’s why they are our friends,

          I still had not found the answer for those question marks, when i think about a thing it will flow as words from your mouth, the level of understanding between us still remains like a huge question mark,

I don’t know why i feel like if u where here right now with me i would have the richest man on earth, i had lots of negatives and still i have, but u surprised me by taking those as positives, am very much sure no one in the world would have go after a guy who had never been serious about life, who was always living in the present without worrying about the future,   

       

   Still whenever i revisit those spots which we had explored together or with our friends i could feel the energy and a visual runs on the screens of my mind, the fights we had on the streets, the roadside tea stall and the pokodas, the rain, oh ya that to the trains, the central railway station, the marina, the pani puris, Bombay lussi, roadside bookshops (later i came to know u hated reading!! just purchase those craps for this poor josh), the hostel, the sabhas, the cinemas, MTC buses, the park, the dhabas, the orphanage, friends weddings, criticising my scripts, the institute of chartered accountants of India, our coaching classes (early morning classes!!), the aptech, all those assignments written by you sweet heart ( i should have preserved those if i knew u will be leaving us so early), che’s t shirts (am still having it), your cooking at our friends flat (the mutton biriyani, ada pradhaman, the meen curry you were an awesome cook sweet heart), the tiger biscuits, long walks, the birthday parties, your songs (you are a bad singer!!), the dance, the bad words you use at times!, all those things which needs a censor, and many more close to heart events, thanks a ton for the wonderful moments,

I know your soul will rest in peace always!!

love

josh

NOTE:

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters,places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental

joker !!

Hello friends,

          Last Friday went for INCEPTION; it was an extraordinary and out of box stuff, loved each shot of it, but still something was creeping in my mind when we came out of the cinema mall, yes it was the one of the best performer of our time who was disturbing me, who had mesmerised us with his stunning performances, and at the last performance he had made an everlasting impression on all of us, he performed his character in such a way like it was the last of his life time, and finally when the jury recognised this great actor he was no more there to receive the top most honour of film world,

    Got any clue of whom am mentioning here, yes there is a association with the director of the movie INCEPTION, Christopher Nolan who had trusted the actor and in return he had made the director proud for what he had assigned for, it’s about Heath Ledger, to make it crystal clear THE JOKER from THE DARK KNIGHT, life at times is so unfair, people say hard work pays, but in his case hard work paid but the person was not there to receive the honour, he was just 28 when he said good bye to this unfair world, so I just remembered one of the special person I respect!

          Now you people wonder why getting emotional, I don’t mind because am emotional driven and in today’s world i will be pulled back to the last row with this attitude but I still don’t give a damn,

          Once again my salute to the joker, I miss him!

love

josh

monsoon mania :)

hello friends,

  how is life, today i feel like writing though there is no specific topic in mind just want to hit the keys in the way my mind directs me, rain its special for all of us, it can bring comfort for our hearts, when we are emotionally down rain enhance our mood, we can sit idle for hours watching the race of rain drops to hit the ground, the various moods of rain can be related to our moods also, we had fun walking in the rain when we were in school, even we had umbrellas we cautiously forget it at home when we are damn sure it’s going to rain heavily, i was blessed enough to spend my school days in our native place, now i realise how bad others had missed the season who are growing and make a living in the concrete forest! It was the best part of my so called life, whenever it rains i could related myself to by beautiful village,

 Rain and football my goodness it’s double treat we were lucky enough to unleash our souls for a while, it was not about scoring and winning it was all about going mad and mad, swimming in pond another heaven for the unrest souls, when we are drenched our next stop will be the tea stall where we treat ourselves with hot snacks and the black tea, wow then our next adventure were to go fishing, we were never frightened by the thunderstorm, we were just crazy going wild at things hard any human soul could imagine!


When ever i plan a trip to my native i make sure it’s monsoon, and you people won’t believe even at this point of life when our old gang meet up we have the same fun we had during our school day, of course with some restrictions! Some of my school mates are married and having kids some are at responsible positions on the so called corporate world but when we meet and that too during monsoon it’s time to kick off our madness and we all become kids for a while and that how life should be lived, monsoon are blessings!!


Love


Josh

hurt locker

Friends,

          Today is Friday another day of off from work and what did i did, yes had did many useless things but yes had done one useful thing i guess! Had watched the movie “the hurt locker”,  which ignited today’s topic for my blog, yup the movie is all about the struggle the soldier’s go all the way through  for the benefit of individuals interests not for nations interest, anyway war is not at all justified if it’s for the benefit of whatever..

          So yes it’s a pathetic position to live a life of an expatriate in your mother land, but the movie also through light on the way these soldier’s live in a foreign land, the war in Iraq whenever engaged as a topic of discussion we got people taking two side, one who justify the blood shedding and the one who grumble for the killing of the innocent people (the kids and women)....

          Families are muddled by these bloody wars for the reason that of the untenable decisions made by leaders (of the world’s super power nations) for their benefits, it’s so clear to all of us that the war on Iraq was all about oil, not because of that Saddam was the real treat to the world, the problem was he would be a treat for the US when you had to sit to obtain a better oil price per barrel, of course US can put sanction on the countries who doesn’t listen to their commands, the war was planned  well in advance to safe guard the interest of the US who in future have to import oil in huge volumes, at that time if Saddam was in power he will be in the position to control the price of the oil and without doubt Saddam will sell it on a much higher price, when you have power you will go demon and forget of the consequences, but the victims of your exploitation will hit back to you as hard as they could when they get the power, power shift will happen, nothing is permanent....

          So these soldiers too have families, mother waiting for her son to get back for Christmas, the children who waits for the father’s to come back for a break and go for a holiday in Disney land, the wife with the new born baby, who had sent the pictures of their child through internet to her hubby who is in the net of war...

          What will be the reason for the next war? Water and hope it never happen and if that happen it will be the end of world!!

          It was a great experience watching this movie, it shows the how helpless are these soldiers are at situations, some movies are really worth watching so this one goes to that group, excellent work, my say is catch it!!

love
josh

my heart beats!!

Friends,
So it has been so long that i had made an attempt to update my blogs, so here i am to put down some words, this time it’s all about you my dear, friends thanks for being my friend, i am so addicted that i couldn’t move on without your support, am blessed with the kind of relation you people are showering on me, when ever am down, you people won’t believe!! Someone from you is just there to step-up my mood by a simple text message, mail or a phone call.. i feel like you people are just watching me close.. so what ever i say is not enough to show my gratitude to you wonderful creation called friends! Be there for me ever and never say goodbye....Khabi Alvida Naa Kehana .....
with love
josh

fill the difference

Hello friends,

          Today when I started to write, one particular topic is disturbing even though I had some other subject to put on the windows, I try to elude that and tried to go on with the actual subject but I couldn’t, so here I am just forced by my instinct to put some light to those who are unaware of this life which is silently lived by many who themselves have no control on how the live their life...

          It was a nice Friday evening, Oh ya for many it will be the last working day of the week but for me it’s like Sunday, because my off falls on Fridays and most of the Saturdays, so as usual without any particular plan I got out in the city bus, just to roam, your journey will be interesting if you don’t have any idea about your destination! My favourite spot is the roadside book vendors who sells the same contents of information on a rather cheaper paper and at an affordable rates than the Landmark’s or the Oxford’s for that matter, for me they are the blessing who gave me the chance of getting into the wonderful world of words at the cheaper cost, then there are two three other spots which I will elaborate on my later blogs, as long as you are there my friends, I won’t to hesitate to write,

      So was mentioning about the books, I had a small chat with the vendor(as many of my friend know I love talking), in the conversation my eyes were catching the attention of one particular book cover and the title on it stopped my conversation, I took the book by reading the title “out of mind, out of sight”, it had a forward written by The great APJ, without second thought I paid for that, on the way to home I had a sneak preview of the book, It was all about the women who are mentally ill and homeless, and the place where they are taken and most of them are taken back to the normal course of life and to their family where they actually belongs to, yes it’s about ‘The Banyan’, for those who already knew about the organisation, you can stop your reading because this content is intended to those who have little information about the banyan, The banyan is non profit organisation which help the homeless mentally ill women who had fallen through all safety nets and are grounded in the darkness of the society, So mental ill is not his/her fault, it’s the circumstance the person had come across,

          So friends to you my humble request is to visit the site www.thebanyan.org you will find all the information about the system, you can contribute to them any of the following methods,

          1, sponsor meal for the residents

          2, gift resident’s monthly medical expenses

          3, gift resident’s monthly nutritional needs

          4, donate clothes, provisions, medicines, furniture etc,

          5, your valuable time which is priceless,

          Let me put forward how we can save money to contribute to a gracious foundation since we are not the ambani’s, any way I will be spending some reasonable amount to buy clothes for my birthday, this time am gonna make it different by contributing that money to the inmates, there are other ways where you can also come up with some idea to pump in money for this venture, like when we friend go for a cinemas will spent a huge money for the crap, am not saying sacrifice all your fun, we can sacrifice it once in a year or half yearly, so please think about it, since you are my friends I know you also appreciate the same way I felt,

          Together we can make the difference, but what I say is together we can fill the difference, at least to help in filling the gap between the women, who are in a different world to the one in the normal world, so it’s just the ending of my blog but the beginning of the venture how we friends can make the difference, by referring to friends friend or whoever is willing to listen, multiply it to the people you know and am confident that it will add values to subtract the pains in the life of your fellow being...

          Let me put full stop for a fresh beginning by lending the following excerpt,

“Volunteers are not paid, not because they are useless but because they are priceless”   

love   

Josh

find out yourself

hello friends,


From today onwards stop donating blood, I mean donate blood to your race, stop blood bank were the bloods of all race are readily available mixed only in the basis of blood group not on the basis of whether it’s from Hindu, Muslim or any other belief for that matter, to make it more narrow minded whether it’s from north Indian or south Indian, and all those craps called caste, most of the time I wonder if human are carve up on the basis of caste why people from different caste have the same blood group, it’s not acceptable, how long this saga will go on, stop and think, imagine when you need an emergency surgery and the doctor who performs it is from a lower caste ( I don’t really believe in caste so going forward the word will be replaced by social group sounds better na!!) ok let us get back into what am trying to say, guess your feeling will be, till this point what the hell is all about, go on will find out what this is all about, so the patient will say no get me the person from my social group, will his son say , “i will never allow this lower social group to perform the med aid It’s better to him( the patient) die rather to recuperate because of the help of the lower class”
So friend hope got the target, yes it’s the topic going crazy around the globe which is heating up and accelerating the dehydration affect of global warming (I believe, personally), if we tune in any news channel will get the dirty pictures of racists abuses, either attacked or to the extreme taken the life, who the hell given the rights to take life of another fellow being, I strongly oppose the death sentence even though it falls under law and regulations, then how can I agree with people killing one and escaping!!
So at least we friends should take initiatives to stop this cancer spreading to our younger generation, it’s our responsibility to ensure a divided world was history, now in practice it only male and female no other class, guess that is the essence of human life, still you feel it’s ok to have this divide then please follow this simple practice ensure that the rice you have for meals are made by the social group you belong to, the hindrances of trade (commercial term yo B.com you rocks oops sounds racists comment) that prevail over by the product here rice are carried by the social group you belong, if you make sure now you can have the satisfied meal!! I know its rubbish then the racism is most terrible than we all could imagine!!
Enough folks no other words to key in to this word doc from my mind, will come up with some new useless subject, any mistake please forgive and guide me to improve and ya please vent your opinion which will act as a driving and reviving fuel for me!!


josh